Thinkin wushu
Oh well...juz posted an email on de wushu egroups... And i remembered i havn't talked bout this on my blog bfore...
I used to think of wushu almoz all de time; be it taolu or move, it juz kept loopin in my head..de thing is, i din get bored of it... I used to b able to learn somethin from all these thinkin, and my thoughts would always inevitably direct towards wushu... When my head was empty, wushu came into my mind...
It's hard to describe how it was then...cuz i never had that feelin for a long time...since de start of this year... For a large part of my sec school days, i spent my time ponderin how to do this n that n how to make somethin look better...and i looked forward to de next trainin each time, cuz i could see if i could do what i had visualised... Think that's how i improved, if i had..well it didn't matter if i didn't, cuz i indeed succeeded in materialisin my imagination...
But now, no matter how hard i try to think..i still do, but it's not de same any more... De way i think n visualise is different, it's juz not gettin into my head.. I no longer unconsciously move my body as it is in my imagination, it's no longer that deep...
Well... Call it a loss of passion, a drop in interest..i dunno, mayb... I think they're somewhat killed inside me... As i type this post, i get more n more agitated...cuz i got a feelin someone's gonna comment or come to me and ask me somethin bout what i've juz said... I welcome it, in a way... But i remember sayin this bfore, this is my blog, so please juz leave it as it is, and leave me as i am...
Pardon me but i feel fucked up (well i said pardon me) when i'm commented on somethin i said on my blog... I'll be glad if it's someone who wants to know more bout me and bout what i said, but not when someone has a stand against what i said...
Oh well...juz posted an email on de wushu egroups... And i remembered i havn't talked bout this on my blog bfore...
I used to think of wushu almoz all de time; be it taolu or move, it juz kept loopin in my head..de thing is, i din get bored of it... I used to b able to learn somethin from all these thinkin, and my thoughts would always inevitably direct towards wushu... When my head was empty, wushu came into my mind...
It's hard to describe how it was then...cuz i never had that feelin for a long time...since de start of this year... For a large part of my sec school days, i spent my time ponderin how to do this n that n how to make somethin look better...and i looked forward to de next trainin each time, cuz i could see if i could do what i had visualised... Think that's how i improved, if i had..well it didn't matter if i didn't, cuz i indeed succeeded in materialisin my imagination...
But now, no matter how hard i try to think..i still do, but it's not de same any more... De way i think n visualise is different, it's juz not gettin into my head.. I no longer unconsciously move my body as it is in my imagination, it's no longer that deep...
Well... Call it a loss of passion, a drop in interest..i dunno, mayb... I think they're somewhat killed inside me... As i type this post, i get more n more agitated...cuz i got a feelin someone's gonna comment or come to me and ask me somethin bout what i've juz said... I welcome it, in a way... But i remember sayin this bfore, this is my blog, so please juz leave it as it is, and leave me as i am...
Pardon me but i feel fucked up (well i said pardon me) when i'm commented on somethin i said on my blog... I'll be glad if it's someone who wants to know more bout me and bout what i said, but not when someone has a stand against what i said...
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