I Don't Know Me Anymore
I dunno what's goin on in me these dayzzz... But i start to think a lot bout partin, leavin and so on... Vinci's departure triggered some thoughts, i dunno what sort of thoughts, only know they were saddenin... Then fridae nite's campfire too, seein a mirror as huge as de hall, where i could see myself juz a long year ago..but reality struck hard - i onli have less than a yr bfore i left de school(s) i've been in for so long...
Up till now, de college songs on campfire nite still ring clear in my ears...well literally as well cuz i'm playin in winamp... But somehow de songs make me feel a gain in level of sadness... Thx junhong for sendin me "Never Forget"...i can see ur one who has love for de school... That's a reason i admire sportsmen, they seem to possess a default loyalty to whatever team they come from... I do as well, but i know myself too well to admire myself...
Thoughts of leavin de life of schoolin (somehow uni doesn't appeal to me) is not as i had so badly wished for...perhaps it's not de days of schoolin, but de school itself... Thoughts of people i had not met in ages, even if it means a couple of months, make me regret not cherishin... Thoughts of people who left and people whom i left... Thoughts of de present, become too scary, cuz i realise de clock really ticks life away... These thoughts randomly pop up in my useless mind and warm my eyes with a layer of tears...
Sounds dumb but i dun think i would mind singin de songs with all de mates i know... I start lookin foward to prom nite but i dun want it to come so soon too; I look back at my bro's grad nite in CHS, it was unforgettable..de songs, cheers and lockin of shoulders; I think of myself havin nothin to look back to cuz grad nite wasn't to be...
Wine is supposed to be for joyous occasions, not a depressant for de sad...
I dunno what's goin on in me these dayzzz... But i start to think a lot bout partin, leavin and so on... Vinci's departure triggered some thoughts, i dunno what sort of thoughts, only know they were saddenin... Then fridae nite's campfire too, seein a mirror as huge as de hall, where i could see myself juz a long year ago..but reality struck hard - i onli have less than a yr bfore i left de school(s) i've been in for so long...
Up till now, de college songs on campfire nite still ring clear in my ears...well literally as well cuz i'm playin in winamp... But somehow de songs make me feel a gain in level of sadness... Thx junhong for sendin me "Never Forget"...i can see ur one who has love for de school... That's a reason i admire sportsmen, they seem to possess a default loyalty to whatever team they come from... I do as well, but i know myself too well to admire myself...
Thoughts of leavin de life of schoolin (somehow uni doesn't appeal to me) is not as i had so badly wished for...perhaps it's not de days of schoolin, but de school itself... Thoughts of people i had not met in ages, even if it means a couple of months, make me regret not cherishin... Thoughts of people who left and people whom i left... Thoughts of de present, become too scary, cuz i realise de clock really ticks life away... These thoughts randomly pop up in my useless mind and warm my eyes with a layer of tears...
Sounds dumb but i dun think i would mind singin de songs with all de mates i know... I start lookin foward to prom nite but i dun want it to come so soon too; I look back at my bro's grad nite in CHS, it was unforgettable..de songs, cheers and lockin of shoulders; I think of myself havin nothin to look back to cuz grad nite wasn't to be...
Wine is supposed to be for joyous occasions, not a depressant for de sad...
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