chem

Of my destiny

“今天考什么？”
“Chem”
“怎样？”
“难。”

And that was it... De moment she asked that first line, i knew what her second was gonna be... I know people are gonna say i'm stupid to say it's difficult, but u guyz don't get it man... No matter what i said, i'm still fuckin screwed when de chem result comes back... I may get considerably good results for de others, but my destiny belongs to me and no one knows it better than me...

Even though i juz said it's difficult, she bloody attributed it to me not lookin up LeeCK for chem lesson... And so i said “有什么分别？难就是难。” And de bloody reply had to be “你又怎么懂？至少你不会觉得这样难。”

This is what u call endurance trainin... Since sec 1, i had to endure such shit concernin results every term when i get de report card, and it's not like i fail everythin, at least i got A for some... Into upper sec, my results were considerably better, except for de english and bio... But still, each time i receive report card, de good results are overlooked and i'm still bloody screwed for de worse ones...

At least show that i put in effort? Results are secondary? Fuck it man! Y'all bloody know that ur still gonna screw me upside down when i fail somethin... Ur never gonna fuckin notice that i've been studyin much harder this year, ur never gonna care that i've started studyin much earlier than i did last year...cuz when i get shit for results, whatever fuck i do is juz not enough... What's de big deal here man? It's so bloody easy to talk, to juz put someone down as if ur gonna do better in my shoes...

IF IT'S SO FUCKIN EASY, COME SHOW ME HOW FUCKIN EASY IT IS... Why don't we switch places? And i'll bloody show y'all why i FUCKIN LOOK DOWN ON such shit...

p.s. I really apologise for de unsightly language, but please pardon me...i don't do it very often...