"For your company"
Last nite i was really in a down mood... And this mornin it was no better when i woke up at 6.45 to have a damn heavy breakfast cuz i had work at 9... Then my mum asked if i wanted to go for a stroll with them as they always do on sundays... Perhaps last week or de 10 weeks before that i would have tagged along reluctantly, laggin behind my parents as they walk... But today, after juz 2 days of work, i realised i didn't have much time to spend with my parents anymore, with this nite job and NS comin up... I didn't want de walk to end at all and durin breakfast, when i knew work was comin, i lost all appetite, seriously... I felt i was back in primary 1 when i sometimes cried in school cuz i couldn't see my mum... It was a really really bad feelin, both in P1 and this mornin...
Anyway, today work was better cuz i was given somethin different to do, hope i can stick with it... And i managed to chat with some of de guyz there... And there's this guy, de only guy so far whom i can talk with normally... Now i can understand how will smith feels in I Am Legend... But i was told to go for 6 days next week, and i juz hope i can remain a part-timer... I really damn regret sayin that i could commit 6 days durin de interview, cuz i still wanna train and hang out...
I can only hope for de best... I've never felt so lost before... To think that i've still got 1 year 10 months to feel lost soon... And so far I really envy those who enlist in january cuz if I'm not a PE teacher and most of my friends enlist in jan, wadde fuck am i doin here... =(
Last nite i was really in a down mood... And this mornin it was no better when i woke up at 6.45 to have a damn heavy breakfast cuz i had work at 9... Then my mum asked if i wanted to go for a stroll with them as they always do on sundays... Perhaps last week or de 10 weeks before that i would have tagged along reluctantly, laggin behind my parents as they walk... But today, after juz 2 days of work, i realised i didn't have much time to spend with my parents anymore, with this nite job and NS comin up... I didn't want de walk to end at all and durin breakfast, when i knew work was comin, i lost all appetite, seriously... I felt i was back in primary 1 when i sometimes cried in school cuz i couldn't see my mum... It was a really really bad feelin, both in P1 and this mornin...
Anyway, today work was better cuz i was given somethin different to do, hope i can stick with it... And i managed to chat with some of de guyz there... And there's this guy, de only guy so far whom i can talk with normally... Now i can understand how will smith feels in I Am Legend... But i was told to go for 6 days next week, and i juz hope i can remain a part-timer... I really damn regret sayin that i could commit 6 days durin de interview, cuz i still wanna train and hang out...
I can only hope for de best... I've never felt so lost before... To think that i've still got 1 year 10 months to feel lost soon... And so far I really envy those who enlist in january cuz if I'm not a PE teacher and most of my friends enlist in jan, wadde fuck am i doin here... =(
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