AIR DEF WPN OPR

"You don't have to worry"

Hmm posting's out this mornin, and i never could have imagined what i got...
Your vocation is: AIR DEF WPN OPR...
At first i was elated, delighted and whatever vocab to describe it... But as de day went by, de question "Why liddat?" started to sink in...

Was it sitest, which i know i can't depend on to get me far..but at least i did what i had to do...
Was it ippt, but i got gold...
Was it FFI, which i put yes for somethin, but i told de MO it's ok...
Was it de mapas test, but i know i couldn't have screwed it up...
Or was it for de simple reason that i'm cock-up...i'm juz not good enough...

I began to cast myself in self-doubt... Yes it's gonna be slack, but that thought juz lasted for a while..now i can only tell myself that i can make use of de extra strength and time i'm gonna have to train on friday nites or perhaps saturday mornings with jiaolian... And if that's gonna happen, i better make full use of it...

Perhaps my pride juz took another blow, and it's time to recover... It's true - pride, you can't eat it - and i guess we should swallow it and learn from where we left off... Juz now i was asked if i've learnt anythin in de army and my reply meant "well, not too much yet, but there will be more to learn".. I think this has been de most critical lesson thus far...

I dunno who i've let down, and i know i can't let my parents nor myself down..but not even i have de answer to this question... And of course at this juncture, i thought of my brother, whom i've not met for 10 months and only been able to communicate him over msn..somehow i think there's another person to add to de list...

"Gentlemen, We are very fortunate."