Hum
Sometimes it's hard to say whether it's a good or bad thing... For de first 12 years of my life i enjoyed exhibitin my abilities and knowledge and mainly thought of myself, not in de selfish sense though if you know what i mean... For de next 8 years i thought gradually more of others, became more reserved, humbler in that sense and went on a downhill in de way i talked to and communicated with people, so much so that it's impaired my speech i can say... Now lookin at it all like a book, it's beginnin to seem more like a bad thing, cuz i can start to imagine de chances i would have won and position i would be at had i not changed so drastically... And cuz of de position i'm at, i start to contract de infamous inferiority complex that further tells me that i shouldn't be speakin up cuz, in what position am i to speak?
But then again, there are times when i feel and know that i definitely have what it takes and i'm juz a little comforted by that... But knowin is nothin without showin i have come to realise, especially in de world today whereby humbleness isn't somethin that people look at and people are usually too lazy and full-of-themselves to stoop to a lower position and finally realise de worth of de earth they have been treadin on... After so long, i no longer know whether it's humble or hum that i can relate to...
People now don't rely on de moon anymore, they prefer de convenience of a torch attached to their head... And that is why moonlight is a public good whereas torches can be sold for a price... Well i guess i juz gotta find my place in this universe...
Once again, i'm baffled by what i'm writin here but it does somewhat relate to what i'm thinkin, and many of de analogies juz don't make sense and i'm juz too tired to think of proper ones, anyway who's bored enough to read de thoughts of a lowly being...
Sometimes it's hard to say whether it's a good or bad thing... For de first 12 years of my life i enjoyed exhibitin my abilities and knowledge and mainly thought of myself, not in de selfish sense though if you know what i mean... For de next 8 years i thought gradually more of others, became more reserved, humbler in that sense and went on a downhill in de way i talked to and communicated with people, so much so that it's impaired my speech i can say... Now lookin at it all like a book, it's beginnin to seem more like a bad thing, cuz i can start to imagine de chances i would have won and position i would be at had i not changed so drastically... And cuz of de position i'm at, i start to contract de infamous inferiority complex that further tells me that i shouldn't be speakin up cuz, in what position am i to speak?
But then again, there are times when i feel and know that i definitely have what it takes and i'm juz a little comforted by that... But knowin is nothin without showin i have come to realise, especially in de world today whereby humbleness isn't somethin that people look at and people are usually too lazy and full-of-themselves to stoop to a lower position and finally realise de worth of de earth they have been treadin on... After so long, i no longer know whether it's humble or hum that i can relate to...
People now don't rely on de moon anymore, they prefer de convenience of a torch attached to their head... And that is why moonlight is a public good whereas torches can be sold for a price... Well i guess i juz gotta find my place in this universe...
Once again, i'm baffled by what i'm writin here but it does somewhat relate to what i'm thinkin, and many of de analogies juz don't make sense and i'm juz too tired to think of proper ones, anyway who's bored enough to read de thoughts of a lowly being...
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