Update for de sake
Should i say time really flies, or is it in fact juz crawlin by... It's been almoz 10 months since i enlisted, which means it's almoz one year before ORD... I still remember de times when i really wanted to be a commander and others when i really thought i shouldn't join de dark side... But that's all in de past now and faced with de same question, i still won't know how to answer - whether to avoid de dark, or join it to make a change... It's like in de movies when you see de hero bein captured and vowin not to surrender, you dunno whether to say he should be respected or is he stupid cuz he can still cause an upheaval by stayin alive... Of course, i'm not sayin i'm a hero of any kind here...
I'm driftin away from de topic here...
I find myself in a state of what kiam calls nirvana, when nothin can really affect your mood, and nothin really stirs you up... Or should i call it desensitisation, a term i never believed in until now... You see things happenin around you all de time, as de world burns and all things spring to life at de same time - all sorts of things - and nothin really fascinates you anymore, nor do they piss you off like they usually do... Or should it be called selfishness? But can it really be so when one has realised it?
This seems never-endin but this post will...
Chinese new year is comin and i can't really get myself high, knowin there will be about 3 exercises comin up right after... Yes it's truly right after... And next week's de SAT and i haven't really done much but still hopin to get a coefficient of 2... AND! Last night newcastle juz got their ass whooped, it's time to wake up their idea before they find themselves in a lower league... Not that i'm proud of it considerin i'm a fan, but you know, you hafta admit it if you wanna improve...
This post doesn't have much of a purpose except to inform everyone that i'm still alive, cuz if i don't, it will be 2 weeks postless when i book in tonight...
Should i say time really flies, or is it in fact juz crawlin by... It's been almoz 10 months since i enlisted, which means it's almoz one year before ORD... I still remember de times when i really wanted to be a commander and others when i really thought i shouldn't join de dark side... But that's all in de past now and faced with de same question, i still won't know how to answer - whether to avoid de dark, or join it to make a change... It's like in de movies when you see de hero bein captured and vowin not to surrender, you dunno whether to say he should be respected or is he stupid cuz he can still cause an upheaval by stayin alive... Of course, i'm not sayin i'm a hero of any kind here...
I'm driftin away from de topic here...
I find myself in a state of what kiam calls nirvana, when nothin can really affect your mood, and nothin really stirs you up... Or should i call it desensitisation, a term i never believed in until now... You see things happenin around you all de time, as de world burns and all things spring to life at de same time - all sorts of things - and nothin really fascinates you anymore, nor do they piss you off like they usually do... Or should it be called selfishness? But can it really be so when one has realised it?
This seems never-endin but this post will...
Chinese new year is comin and i can't really get myself high, knowin there will be about 3 exercises comin up right after... Yes it's truly right after... And next week's de SAT and i haven't really done much but still hopin to get a coefficient of 2... AND! Last night newcastle juz got their ass whooped, it's time to wake up their idea before they find themselves in a lower league... Not that i'm proud of it considerin i'm a fan, but you know, you hafta admit it if you wanna improve...
This post doesn't have much of a purpose except to inform everyone that i'm still alive, cuz if i don't, it will be 2 weeks postless when i book in tonight...
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